I’m understanding for the first time what boundaries are as applied to me. Strange, boundaries must be what is called and abstract concept, and I’ve always had difficulties really understanding and personalizing abstract concepts.
Anyway, one of the areas where my boundaries are fuzzy is in the amount of personal information that I share with others. I tend to put it all out there without understanding the repercussions of being so transparent. Which can leave me wide open and vulnerable to being hurt by others. I am a bad liar, and my definition of honesty can be rigid so honest sharing can get a little too personal with me because I feel I’m being dishonest if I’m not telling the exact truth.
This is something that I’ve always done but have never given it any real thought before. I can be honest without being an open book.
Another area that I have trouble with is running over other people’s boundaries without meaning to. Maybe because I can be such an open book, I think that others are that way, too. I’m never sure if my joking around with someone is stepping on toes, never sure if asking questions is prying or sharing…I just don’t understand those rules. I want to. It would make life so much easier.
And being so isolated doesn’t make this any easier. I appear normal, I guess, so when I say that I really have trouble with this I get blown off. And I don’t learn and then continue to make social gaffs that are embarrassing which leads to more isolating…and it never ends. It’s hard to try and figure all of this out when I’m so blind to the issue.
But, maybe this new awareness of boundaries is a beginning? Hopefully?
